While war is raging here in Israel in Gaza I'm caught between two things War and Love. Sounds crazy i know. You would think i'd be scared for my life but I'm not all that i can think about is conversations ive been having. Crazy me right?
My challenge right now is to understand another motive if that even makes sense. I have well I'll call him a friend who has a huge crush on me. But I don't feel the same way or so i think at least. Its like trying to figure out if what your about to do will change your life or your world. I can't really explain it it's just life changing. War or Love witch do i fouces on or choose?
more on this later
blogging may stop for a long while
breslevgirl-blessings always
Tuesday, 30 December 2008
Sunday, 14 December 2008
Just one of those days or is it?
Yeah so I've been sick these past few days it's been a nightmare to say the least. Bh i started feeling better but i don't want to go back to school. Not to say i don't enjoy school my days are short and its ok not grate but ok. Yet i don't want to return mabey I'll write a post about it mabey. Anyway its tat feeling i guess of dread or fear ( plus the on going argument with about a class i refuse to attened) or its one of those days where you just want time to your self. Or is it am i trying in a way i myself my not realize that i'm trying to skip school? In truth i don't know i just miss sleeping all day
anyway off to sleep now
blessings always-
breslevgirl
anyway off to sleep now
blessings always-
breslevgirl
Saturday, 13 December 2008
The Bochrim party
So last week was my Sister's birthday and my brother's first off shoboss off from yeshivah ( ugh!!).
At the Holtzberg's funeral we met my brother's yeshivah so my mom being my mom she invited one of the guy's. Ok no problem i know i the guy was by us for succos grate guy my sister's love him always talking about the guy so why not?
Later that night or the next my sister called my brother and found out that another guy was joining us ok no problem i also know the guy he was by us to nothing to freak about. Next day I'm out with my mom were headed into the super market when my youngest brother calls. Hey mom he says *S.A called and he has no place for shoboss he wants to know if he can come over can he. Sure my mom replies with a smile knowing she's happy to have another bocher over. I smile as i step out of the car and say another to join the party. No i had no problem with any of them coming over except that one of the guy's i really like lets just say he makes me feel very out of place with im around in a good way. So i braced myself for a shoboss full of bordom why bordom you ask?
Well i don't have friends where i live i barely have any at all but still. I was happy for my sisters who did in fact have the time of their lives on shoboss i mean their favorite guy's where there. And me i sat drooling inside at the good looks of the guy i have a crush on and tryign to avoid him. Though it looked like he was trying to avoid me.
Anyway when they left Sunday night i thought about why we send the boy's away to yeshivah. No p i have nothing agesint the boy's that came but i relized i don't looked fowred to my brother coming home i look forwed to meeting his friends. Because he he's not concerned about his faliy just about his. But his freinds need a home need some love and they find that here at our home. I look forwed to the bochrim party bc i get to understand the crazyniss of it all.
At the Holtzberg's funeral we met my brother's yeshivah so my mom being my mom she invited one of the guy's. Ok no problem i know i the guy was by us for succos grate guy my sister's love him always talking about the guy so why not?
Later that night or the next my sister called my brother and found out that another guy was joining us ok no problem i also know the guy he was by us to nothing to freak about. Next day I'm out with my mom were headed into the super market when my youngest brother calls. Hey mom he says *S.A called and he has no place for shoboss he wants to know if he can come over can he. Sure my mom replies with a smile knowing she's happy to have another bocher over. I smile as i step out of the car and say another to join the party. No i had no problem with any of them coming over except that one of the guy's i really like lets just say he makes me feel very out of place with im around in a good way. So i braced myself for a shoboss full of bordom why bordom you ask?
Well i don't have friends where i live i barely have any at all but still. I was happy for my sisters who did in fact have the time of their lives on shoboss i mean their favorite guy's where there. And me i sat drooling inside at the good looks of the guy i have a crush on and tryign to avoid him. Though it looked like he was trying to avoid me.
Anyway when they left Sunday night i thought about why we send the boy's away to yeshivah. No p i have nothing agesint the boy's that came but i relized i don't looked fowred to my brother coming home i look forwed to meeting his friends. Because he he's not concerned about his faliy just about his. But his freinds need a home need some love and they find that here at our home. I look forwed to the bochrim party bc i get to understand the crazyniss of it all.
The most awkward Thign ive been asked
So tonight i check my facebook and a freind who i have been chatting with asked me the flowing :
did you ever or do you still have a crush on me?
The frist thign i did was laugh and smile funny no? but now i'm stuck thinking about it. Some how i have this thing where i fall for guys I don't know i see the person. But when i see them its like i see them their feeling ect ( no i have no magic power) something just senses something about them. I watch then and can tell if their kind mean angry at life ect ( boy I'm a flop)
But this pearon is way older then me way way like in their 20's and i'm kinda werided out by him asking.
I wonder what i'll respond anyway more posts comign tonigth and soon ( more laptop time yay me ( gosh i'm pethtic))
did you ever or do you still have a crush on me?
The frist thign i did was laugh and smile funny no? but now i'm stuck thinking about it. Some how i have this thing where i fall for guys I don't know i see the person. But when i see them its like i see them their feeling ect ( no i have no magic power) something just senses something about them. I watch then and can tell if their kind mean angry at life ect ( boy I'm a flop)
But this pearon is way older then me way way like in their 20's and i'm kinda werided out by him asking.
I wonder what i'll respond anyway more posts comign tonigth and soon ( more laptop time yay me ( gosh i'm pethtic))
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